Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Since October...

...I have lost 30 pounds (I'm down to 195 today). Now granted, during that time I lost, gained, and then lost some of the same pounds back. Yeah, I know, that's kind of confusing. Some of you know EXACTLY what I'm talking about and are nodding your head right now. It has only been since mid-May that I have lost the majority of that weight though. I feel so much better. My self-confidence as soared. I can tell that I have lost some of the junk in my trunk and that I don't feel like my ass has it's own zip code any more. I can wear clothes that I couldn't wear last year. Because I'm exercising, I feel more fit than I have felt in years. I actually LOOK FORWARD to exercising! What theeeeeeeeeeee hell? How is that possible?? I have more energy and I'm mindful of my food choices. I worry though, that I'll revert back to the old ways. I worry that I won't stay focused and that I'll find myself in my recliner with a chili-cheeseburger plate with no thoughts of exercising. Will I let myself go that route again? I have before. 10 years ago, I went from 206 to 126 pounds in about 8 months. I kept the weight off for about 4 or 5 years. Gradually, the weight crept back on until I eventually weighed 225 pounds. I know that I'll always battle my weight. I know that it will never be easy for me. How do change my lifestyle for good and make it stick?


  1. Look forward to working out? Now THAT is a victory! Keep taking one day at a time okay? I think for a lot of us there always in the back of our minds the thought of what if I revert back to my old ways but as long as we continue to be aware of our decisions and reflect, we can only hope for the best.

    And, I have your blog saved forever and ever in my list of must reads so if I see you slackin, game on! That is not a promise, that is a threat! MWHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH


  2. Exercise can certainly be addictive, and it's an addiction that, while time-consuming and hard on the laundry, doesn't have many ill side-effects. Keep it up!

  3. i think being worried about it is the best defense. kinda like crazy people never worry about whether or not they're insane...

  4. been there, done that.. have the "i lost 90 lbs, then gained 140 back" t-shirt.

    it's an EVERY day battle. i don't think it ever gets easy.